Free and Confident

Sarah,

The girl in the pink dress. You are the love of my life.

Over the past few days of reflecting I realize I have not done my very best to SEE you. To SEE all of you. I want to know you deeply. I want to know all of you. I want you to feel my love, and not for the role you play in my life but simply because you are loved UNCONDITIONALLY.

I love this picture of you. You are free, confident, and spontaneous. I love this Sarah (because I think you love this Sarah). I want to be a part of you giving yourself the freedom to be this Sarah and not the "be ready for anything and protect yourself Sarah - isolated."

You are truly special, an incredible woman, a serving mother, and a faithful queen.

This week you are at the Deeper event. Dropping you off at the airport was so incredibly hard. I am so proud of you for going. I don't like using that word because I think it comes off as arrogant but that is not what I mean...what I mean is, I know this is so hard, I know it is not your first choice...by any stretch. But I think at the core it is more about what is possible for us, for our kids, and that is why you make yourself go. My prayer is that it becomes more about doing it for you - because you matter - I want you to know how much you matter.

You and God already have such a cool relationship, my prayer is he pursues you this week and the two of you connect in a new and fresh way. My prayer for that to happen is NOT so you will change for us - but because you and your heart matter and you are loved, I hope that you feel that this week.

I adore you and hope you also have some fun.

Your dude - Ned

Missing you....

Lovely lady....I miss you.

This weekend I was at Disneyland with our baby girl...she turned 11. It was so nice you let me take her and her friends. It was great to be the guy, the fun dad, they one they looked to for food, direction, etc.

But we are on our flight home and I miss you.

I have to be back in California in two days. I came home just to see you. A few weeks ago we spent 12 days apart. I didn't like it. I couldn't be away that long again.

I am on my way home to you.

I want to make the most of the two nights we have together.

I love you.

Ned

Independent Woman

My Sarah....I say my Sarah, and I mean it like, you are my girl, but rest assured, you're not property and you would never settle for that shit....lol...you are strong, capable, and independent.

I do love that about you.

This past week you, Brooke, Violet, and Presley were on a road trip in California. You went for Presley's birthday celebration and to look at colleges for all the girls.

I am so impressed by you.

Off you always plan incredible trips, you find the best hotels, food (really coffee shops, lol), and this time you rented a Tesla. I told you over the phone that I wouldn't have chosen to do that because I wouldn't want to deal with the learning curve. But I love that you figure stuff out, that doesn't scare you...and you are out doing it, and modeling this life, to our daughters. They are going to be very capable because of you.

I love you Sarah, you are an incredible mom and woman.

Love,

Ned